Happy everyday
Monday, March 25, 2013
Contradict to the title, im more of trying to be happy everyday. Things haven't been very good and it kinds of dampened my mood every now and then. Im sorry i know this is supposed to be a post about my birthday celebration and all the happz last month( i think), but really the blogging mood doesn't seems to suit.
It alway feels like i have so much on my plate but i am not going to ever remove everything there. Im so sick of having to repeat every day like these, mourning over under expectation results, missing lectures and well, basically i lost the urge to go to school. No more close friends whom you can confide in, no more lunches/dinner together in those heartfelt ways..it just seems different. I dont seem to like to go to school anymore.
So tired of having to compete for every single thing, tired of the awesome bellcurve, tired of having to force myself to study and study again.
I feel so tired of studying.
It feels like im a sad and lonely girl inside having to force a smile, hoping that the grey sky will brighten up tmr. It doesn't help when my happy pills cannot be around for whatever reasons they have.
But i know (still praying), these too shall pass.
Owing
Sunday, March 17, 2013
Been really busy recently.. will update a post on my birthday celebration soon prolly a week later hehe. On the otherhand, our plan is hatching up. Really look forward to its birth!
In the mean time....Im back to my essay :(