when hopes turn nothing
Sunday, May 22, 2011
hi all, life's as boring as usual. i blogged once in a while nowadays and i really couldn't remember what i did in those weeks. vague memories of THE ONE which is kinda awesome esp the dance category, awesome :)before that had mahjong session at my house kinda fun as long as there are noobs who create epic and funny moments haha. then the rest i cant remember much already.
well, sometimes just as i thought people around me are real then i guess they aren't as genuine as they seem to be afterall. life is full of these kind of nonsense isn't it. i cant help to be not affected at all because its just in me that i do care. perhaps i'm still holding on to the past memories we used to had and like an idiotic moron foolishly believing that one day we will be back, back to the ones we used to be. funny how things always prove me wrong, funny how the same old things can bring me down. so i guess no one else is trying anymore.
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had a brisk walk at east coast during friday night with the boy after feasting at the hawker center there. i went there in hope of letting off my frustration and perhaps life would be much easier for me from then on. it did help but things are not gona wash away and never come back. but i relly enjoy the walk and happy moments we share at the beach. good things don't come as easily as we wished to be, i really treasure what i have now. as for what i lost or rather what we lost, they had all turned to memories of the past. which sometimes, i hope i got brainwashed and don't remember a single things we used to share.
okay now is sgc time.
Thursday, May 12, 2011
The previous post was how I really felt in the morning. True that i'm upset but I guess I have been harsh on my words. Sorry for my short temper these few days. Nevertheless, I still mean what I say just that it's not pointing at any individual. But for now, Im not as upset as I was this morning and I guess I never will anymore. So from tmr onwards I wish to be happy and not flare up so easily. I hope i can do it. That's all for the short post, goodnight!
Anger
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
You know how I feel? It's like a volcano ready to erupt. And you? You know how I feel? No you don't all you care about was how tired you are how you need more rest hello I'm also a human being I can why can't you? I force myself to come sch despite a headache I force myself to come sch cos I'm scared if I don't people like you will start to find any reasons like me not to come as well. But apparently it doesn't matter to you. Why can't you be more considerate and act like a young adult? Must I remind you every single week? Must there really be attendance taking before things can turn better? I try not to say anything as much as I can but you know what? It reach my limit. I appreciate thise who make the effort to, i really do. At least these people care unlike you. They are all tired what makes you different from them? Oh btw to me, some have alr intended not to come when you are not even wearing the uniform let me tell you it doesn't make a diff to whether you came or not cos to me, you haven't make the effort to either. Put yourself in my shoe can? I tried to respect you but pls take the initiative to be responsible to others as well. I may be the healthrep but this is not the way to push everything to me. I hate to say this on my blog but true enough, I have gotten enough disappointment each time and I have had enough.
Happy things coming around
Monday, May 09, 2011
Hellooo. life's hectic. i took my tv time to hurry blog the happenings these few days like how pathetic. Anyway straight to the point, aljunied was conquered by the workers' party. its a dilemma to many though cos though its a joy but it a pity we lost george yeo. life's that way, we all have to move on with changes all around. :)
7 may was ONGKID's birthdayyy and im glad she was a happy kid on that day haha. i always thought its cool to be touched to cry on your birthday just like what that little foolish girl did. but then, it will only happen if that person is easily moved! anyhow, happy birthday kid! i love you many many just like before <3
head to visit baby's parent afterwhich went to his house to make his mother's day gift. speaking of mother's day, this year we hardly celebrate cos it clashed with my uncle's birthday and everyone had to head down for his birthday buffet. but i didnt go cos i figure out i will be damn bored sitting alone over there watching tv. nevertheless, i love my mum for always being there for me and all, esp for tolerating my nonsense whenever i flare up for no reasons. though she wont be reading this, still i love you mummy :D
then 8 may was our first year anniversary too. :D was supposed to go out for a series of program but just realised a few days before it clashed with mothers' day as well. so we only head out for my all time craving dim sum buffet. since the day we got together i have been feasting a lot with that boy and it makes me fat like mad. we had dim sum buffet at zhou's kitchen at anchorpoint. the dim sums were pretty good. i actually planned to spam my favourite har gau and siew mai and we wanted to try every single dish there but...we were damn full already after the first round. and i ate only 2 har gau.... :( Hehe anyway, im still happy cos i satisfied my craves! shall bring dawsym there next time hehe
Well, it has been one year. I'm still as happy as we first started out. frankly speaking, one year isn't far but what matters more to me, was in this one year, we went through many things that never fails to make me smile whenever i think of it. i admit i have changed a little with my temperament growing more uncontrollably and sometimes it got things rough between us. then i always expect you to give in cos im stubborn. sometimes you did, sometimes you don't. anyhow, those little conflicts always dissolve by itself somewhere and we realised how silly we are at the end of the day. you have been giving me all the attention i need and everything i wanted to have. you have always been there for me when everything fails me. i want you to know that i really treasure your presence and i love you horrible boy. :)
Despite all the stress im having nao, im glad there are always people around me whom i can rely on. sometimes, things don't go the way i wish for but there's always ways to make it better. :) lastly, thanks dearest for your belated card. Love youuu! :D
Ps back to mugging mode. My wish at this moment was to sleep without worries. can i? no.
Having my say on 2011 election
Monday, May 02, 2011
As stated on the title, I have successfully cultivate an interest on this upcoming election. It's kind of interesting how politicians argued among themselves and some even portray how shallow they are like seriously a joke. Anyway, I'm saying abt my GRC aljunied between P and the wp.
It all started during tea time with my mum. She asked me if I were to vote who would I vote for? I thought for awhile then I told her ridiculously, ' for the bigger picture I would vote for wp cos I think they deserve aljunied and it's unfair and definitely to our disadvantaged if the whole Singapore comes under one democratic party. But on the other hand, it is so clear that only those estates under P are priviledged enough to enjoy benefits by the govt like lift upgrading etc(honestly I really don't see the need, I'm quite satisfied with the main lift my block had but mum said it's to help the elderly so I guess it's not as bad as I thought).
Then our conversation proceeds actually the goverment is not as good and fair as I thought. I started my education journey in P a government kindergarden and I always thought P is the best and we should just rely on them. But hey I was wrong. I was kinda displeased to know that because P has more goverment representatives in the parliament, the govt then give more attention and welfare benefits to the estates under them. The opposition parties? They are left to fend own their own with little funds provided by the govt. The evidences are clear with potong pasir and hougang being the what I presumed oldest estates because there were hardly any upgrading purely cos they are not under the P. To me it's kinda unfair, like what the online comment mentioned, all singaporeans paid gst and income tax to the govt, shouldn't all singaporeans be treated equally regardless of who is representing you?
Then I just realised actually serangoon used to be under marine parade. And because 5 years ago, the aljunied at that time was almost lost to the opposition party and 2 or 3 years ltr, the government redraw the electoral boundaries and transferred the marine parade supporters( at that time pro p) to dilute the opposition strength. Like how unfair can it be? Then there was this comment I saw on tv when the wp comment sth like 'ming zhi Shan you hu, pian Xiang hu Shan xing' which means it's a dangerous ventures. Even my mum who haven't study much also get what the wp means that they left hougang to fight for aljunied which can cause them to lose everything, even their hg territory. I think the wp is really applaudable, my opinion. Funny how people can read it as thinking the opposition portray them as tigers. Hello, a minister. A joke.
To me, it's clear who is the right one to vote for but too bad, I didn't have the chance to. And honestly I'm not out to criticise the govt just that it's really disturbing how they kind of bully the weaker and make me doubt the democratic system in Singapore. It's always good to have some opposition parties in the parliament cos if they were to be wiped out, we will really lose our say and jolly becomes the govt puppet.