Graduation
Friday, September 21, 2012
Hi, attended the boy's graduation ceremony with his family today. I think the highlight was the OPPA GANGNAM STYLE at the very end. Hehehe.
Love you. <3
Insufficent
Thursday, September 20, 2012
There's school tmr. Feel like skipping my philo lecture but the thought of wasted money broke my heart.
Thursday is my off day. I planned to study but decided to give myself a break. Next week is recess week which means HOLIDAY. LIKE A FINALLY PLEASE. School exhausts me very much.
Anyway i am reading a book currently: Escape from Camp 14. A non-fiction book about a man who had harrowingly escaped from North Korea. Definitely worth my time.
Tmr is also baby's POP day. <3
Today
Today is a day full of thoughts. Im feeling so overwhelmed by everything, everyone. But im pretty glad they got me thinking.
Also, today i sent dearest off to the airport with the others. I thought i could control. Honestly, i really thought i could pull it off. I was really happy but sad as she cried only while i gave her a hug, and not really anyone else. I guess i really know how far our friendship has gone and it has been so long that we thought it wasnt this way anymore. I am truely glad that i have her as my bestie. Today brought back alot of memories of us. :) I cant stress this more but please takecare of yourself and know your limit. Be confident of yourself cause you are who you are. Whatsapp, skyed or whatsoever with us often! We'll go gaigai once you come back <3
Today,we watched cowboy in paradise. I know its school stuff but it really got me questioning sexuality and stuffs. Im always not a person who rlly approve premarital sex until today (but doesnt mean i will do it). Its like, why constraint yourself? You only live once, there are so many things out there you have yet to try and you are just studying your ass off every single day for that damn degree and mainly, fufillinh society expectation. I love watching people. Sometimes, i caught myself observing and thinking why are they leading this kind of life? Is this really what they want? But ironically, im no better than them. I feel hopeless. Its not that premarital sex is good but it is nothing wrong. You think its wrong because thats what everybody says, thats what the society determined. At the end of the day, you are nothing but a pet of the society. And, i have been spending my 19 years being part of the population and i can do nothing (as what i feel now) to change anything.
Today, i met this friend whom i havent talked much to for 2 years of school life and then dearest's temporary departure enable us to meet again. He made me realise alot of things we can do if we want. But many of us, unlike him, are often unwilling to go against the flow. (He went poly and doesnt intend to go uni for now. He is doing, as i feel, very well now in learning the ropes to business/investment). I wish to be like him, but i know very well i do not dare to take the risk. The risk of failing to succeed and having nowhere to go without a university degree. Again, like most of you. But really, i wish to be that strong and driven someday.
Today i really wish i dare to change.