light up the town
Friday, April 29, 2011
hi all. Haven't been blogging for quite awhile. Been busy with studies, friends outings family outings etc but mainly I'm lazy. well, these few weeks was filled with ups and downs. I have kinda explode myself last few days cos i couldn't stand the things revolving around my life anymore. guess it has kind of built up over time, and you know...one day you just simply cant take it and breakdown. nevertheless, I'm gradually learning to adapt again, to this kind of life where people around you can be so fake and insensitive, where people are just so damn selfish and care only about themselves. I can't fathom why these people exist. On a lighter note, I have recovered from all those bullshitting i got everyday thanks to baby and the lovelies who always cheer me up with their dumb and blonde moments. <3
I can't really remember what i did for the past weeks just random recollection. Went out with dearest and H. suppose to be happy meetup but things ended kind of displeasuring. I hope it wont happen again cos it doesn't really feel good to me. Then had feast season with baby some time back- wanted to eat my dim sum buffetttt but then ended up with steamboat at bugis. I thought bugis steamboats would be nicer and cheaper but noooo i would prefer the one at vivo the bei shang chuan (that we used to eat). there are much more varieties,better ambience and the last time i went, the price was ard 15-18? I think more worth it. nevertheless, it was a good day with the boy. <3 then had sakae buffet again with the boy and tgt with the lovelies(except grumpy suhh who cmi and got all upset, haha) at bishan. Niceeee but i still dislike the raw salmon taste. :( We ate till bloated but it was an enjoyable lunch! :D Then there were shoppings with mum and sis at town for some days but all were not so fruitful. oh and slc had resumed, good news to rejoice about though im not entirely involved in it anymore. hopefully the juniors are better appreciative of this cca which almost became a part of NY history. :) The rest of the days were basically filled with studies. honestly, i dont feel prepared for A's a single bit. sigh.
then today was baby's A div. Didnt go down to support but i shall treat him better as compensation hehe. I hope his team wins what they deserved! :D
At the end of the day, its always the people whom you matter to really cares about you. And thankfully for them, you pick yourself up each time you fall and you know those who didnt care shouldn't bother you a single shit and those who care, you ought to appreciate them for everything, every memories that they gave. <3
Sleep walking
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
Hello it's another no photo post cos I typed this using itouch. I'm that tired that I don't even feel like turning on my lappy. But I had no idea why I'm so tired cos I weren't revising a single bit yet despite my determination to work hard :/ and I slept before 12 everynightttt mostly watching the new hk forensic show. What was I doing all along? I think my energy is consistently being sucked away by unknown forces. :( I wanna study in school badly but I always got tempted to head home for my powernap first and it always end up with a futile day. :( can somebody save meeeeeee?
Sigh just ranting. I'm so tired.
Finally completed my 5 stations today. My muscles still aching but not as badly. Anyway, today was a funny day because of some funny people. I have ngsuhh acting nonsensically in class today and made me loss for laugh and melly foo for irritating me by misleading me the gp as h1 period. Godddd and this morning zy showed me black face dampen mood :( and seeing wann entertaining suhh was entertaining to me. Blondssss :D Hardly talk to baby today idkw :( and the day ended off peacefully.
K I totally brain drain. Goodnight.
Random
Sunday, April 10, 2011
Last night while catching on my tutorials, caught the incredible tales. That episode was about cannabalism in Indonesia. I was born in Indonesia and its kind of terrifying cos honestly, i never thought cannabalism would still exist in this century. :0 Anyway i will be putting up the stories by them in the later part. Thinking of these weird incidents mostly occurring at Indonesia made me thought of an incident in the past. Till today im not really sure if its part of my dream or did it really happen. Its not as horrendous as cannabalism but still its kind of freaky thinking of it.
Well, that period of time i was back to indonesia to visit my family (they were now migrated here), and things were as per normal. It was during one of the night when the weird thing came. I remembered i was sleeping soundly but awoken by a slight noise (im a light sleeper). then i was like shrugging and rubbed my eyes to see what/who was making that noise. And i kind of stretch my head away from my pillow alittle and spot a man dress in those kind of tribal clothing. y'know those kind of tribe they will draw the 3 lines on their face and he was wearing those kind of rooster headband thing. yeah, im not sure what he was doing at that time but im sure his eyes came into contact with mine and he was squatting somewhere beside the bed near my feet. Im not sure if i fainted out or something but i just pacify myself back to sleep and i soon fell asleep. is it a dream? im not too sure either cos it feels so real...anyway its all over and i hope i never ever meet with creepy stuffs when im back again.
and here's the story of cannabalism in some part of indonesia. according to the show, it was bajaj i think. its up to you if you believe if it exists though. haha. its some kind of tribal code performed there...
The code of the Battas of Sumatra condemns to be eaten alive those guilty of adultery, those who commit theft at night, prisoners of war, those who treacherously attack the inhabitants of a house, or a lonely man. The execution takes place without delay, in the presence of the whole population. In cases of adultery, one last formality is necessary: the relatives of the criminals must be present at the carrying out of the sentence. The husband, the wife, or the persons most directly offended, have the right to retain the ears of the condemned for themselves. Then, each according to his rank chooses his fragment, and the chief judge cuts off the head and hangs it like a trophy at the door of his hut.
The brain, to which they attribute magical properties, is preserved in a gourd. The intestines are not devoured, but the soles of the feet, and the heart, cooked with rice and salt, are regarded as a delicious dish. The flesh is always eaten raw, or grilled at the place of punishment, and the use of palm wine and other strong liquors is strongly interdicted at these judicial feasts, where the men alone have the right to be present. Sometimes also they collect the blood in bamboo stems. In defiance of the law, the women use a thousand subterfuges, and employ all their seductions, in order to share in this secret and horrible feast.
Some travellers affirm that the Battas prefer human flesh to all other, but only indulge in it during warfare and following the death sentence. Others accuse them of immolating, in times of peace, from sixty to a hundred slaves annually. But today the Battas no longer put their parents to death when age has rendered them useless as workers or fighters. Formerly, every year at the time of the ripening of the citrons, old men were to be seen voluntarily submitting to death. The family assembled; the victim, weighed down with age, collected all his energy and sprang towards the branch of a tree, there to remain suspended by both arms until his strength failed and he fell to the ground. Then the neighbours and children, who had been dancing round him in a circle, sang this refrain: ‘When the fruit is ripe it needs must fall!’ They thereupon precipitated themselves upon him, beat him to death, dismembered him and devoured his flesh, soaking it in samboul or sprinkling it with kari. When an Englishman offers tea and milk, the Battas often reject them with scorn, retorting: ‘Only children drink milk; Battas drink blood!’
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found a video link on cannabalism on youtube. After watching it i really wanna vomit.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OgpZrPpNfJ8
Dont watch if you can't take gross stuffs.
Grateful
Saturday, April 09, 2011
Gotten back my BT results and PW. BT was alright considering the amount of effort i put in. true that hard work doesn't always pay off but i guessed i really hadn't put in my very best in this. so im really gona work hard for my mid year which is in 3 months time. its not any longer but just 10 weeks away. c'on, its time to buck up. well, PW was great, an A. NY045's is awesome and our class did pretty well but heard the school didn't. nonetheless we still have along route ahead. let's move on and work hard for the others! :) oh just to mention, my grade today was all thank to our teacher mentor ms petrine leeeeee who consistently stayed up late with us to finish our work. without her, im sure we wouldn't have done so well. she's one awesome teacher! :}
After results announced, had lunch at pastamania with NYO45 - peiling and prithika as they have make up /lessons going on. Met zhenyi's group there too. was damn fullll. was late for econs lesson and we freaking had a shocked by a harmless bird cos of shum. haha. thought it was injured as it was position in the drain before and after we came back from lunch. who knows it suddenly flew up and shocked us. nevertheless it was one funny moment.
then econs lesson was kind of surprise when PEH commended our class for the first time in history cos we did the best i guess, among his class. ;} to think he often see us as one hopeless class haha. but i guess i couldn't stay in the better lt anw cos results kind of deproved. well kind of expected but still alittle embarrassed? hahaha.
Also had anderson classic at marina square with baby last night. i had his pudding and my army top from him! <333333 was planning to have sakae buffet but was still damn full from my pasta so we skipped it :( alittle disappointed but nvm we shall have it next time :) im gona train my stomach to hold more food!
<3
Napfa today was alright. Backache, muscle ache all over and even my butt hurts. wts. i feel like a duck now cos i couldn't walk properly. :/ hope it gets well by 2.4! was supposed to go study at amk with dearest they all but cough was still as bad its kind of disturbing so missed it. tmr i hope i can go. i wanna find back the study mode.
to you know who,
im sorry that i didnt express my sincerity enough. well, its really unintentional. perhaps we have drifted that i dont really know how you really feel at times. i guess you dont really confide in me as much as in the past. its not a matter of affecting our friendship but just...i dont like it when i feel i havent done enough as a friend. its just really doesn't feel good to you, and to me. how should i find back 'us'?
The scream goes unheard
Wednesday, April 06, 2011
Hi life's a bore and it's always the usual routine. I wanna grow out of this study life and feel really like a free bird but fat hope, yeah I know. I remember when I was p2 I think, I stayed at my aunt house temporarily. Every midnight around 2 plus I will have the habit to go toilet. And whenever I opened the door trying to make my way to the toilet I never failed to get taken aback by my poor cousin who was mugging for her A's at that time. She literally look like a mad woman. Her hardwork did paid off as she's now already acquire a kinda high post in her company and earn nearly 5000 monthly excluding all the bonus she has gotten from time to time. Envy much but I'm not sure if I'm ready to pay the price. Nontheless, she's someone I look upon to and I hope someday when I break away from all those lectures tutorials and exams that are drowning me, I'm going to explore the world happily and fufillingly.
Anyway I have written a long post about how I felt about nyjc service learning closing down and it was in a really mad and terrible tone that I decided perhaps it would be better to keep within. Afterall it couldn't change anything there's no need to offend anyone. Yet I wanted to say, it was unfair to the members esp the juniors and I feel both parties are plainly ridiculous. Period. Anyway, today was our last session. To a certain extent I wouldn't say I regretted being part of them because I really did gain quite alot from all I have learnt. But then it's kind of disappointing too. Well, it's all over.
Then I wanna share some of my childhood experiences. I sort of remember how much retarded stuffs I used to do in the past. I remember i still suck the nipple when I went to kindergarden2 and it was embarassing much because apparently I couldn't live without it. I used to often wet my bed and got scolded badly by my aunt. I was being punished to dry my own bed and stood outside of the house haha. I used to be very boyish as I often play with the boys even though I was in Chinese dance. I played pokemon, the eraser thingy,wrestling and oh ya I even outrun many of the guys in catching. Haha I joined the atheletic in p4 I think but couldn't hold on by p5 cos I don't wanna get tanned. Oh I used to have super curly hair too that I couldn't stand it and went for rebornding. And I started cheating in k2, haha. It was a spelling test and I couldn't differentiate was were and are. Ridiculous manxzz thinking of it. And so I stick the paper with the words on my pencil case which is those kind of metallic one. So during the test I could open and see smart kid I thought I was. Who knows all the three words was called consecutively and so I have to open and close my pencil case like 6 times and worse thing the metal sound was so loud that inevitably got caught. Zzz. But I stopped cheating since p2 cos I wanna be a good girl haha.
K you just wasted 5 min of your life reading my childhood which I write out of boredom hehe love you readers :)