Saturday, October 30, 2010
Today i'm suppose to rush things. I wanted to finish memorizing my script, finish finding the pictures, finish some undone revision and head down to town. But I spend the entire day glued to the tv. Since early 12 watch drama till late 12. I'm so impressed by myself. :O anyway main point I wasted my day, like totally.
Tmr will still be having op rehearse with group. It's going to be another long and tiring day.
Okay, that's it readers. Goodnight. (I can sleep instantly)
ps: miss you dearest and hsiao. Badly.
Friday, October 29, 2010
''I wanted everything to stay the same but feelings fade and people change.'' The pain and scar is there, i guess its irreversible. But im pretty sure you will do fine, without me(:
Today i awesomely rehearsed for OP for what seems like a thousand times. Shag day. Btw, i think tumblr is cool. Starting one soon. hehe.
& thanks to you two (you know who) for your concern and everything. You never know but those words really put a smile on my face. At the end of the day, i realise afterall, im not facing this alone. Im sure this wound will heal soon. Love you girls(: Thanks baby for cheering me up and brighten my days everyday too. Sometimes you get hurt but knowing there are still people who cares, the hurt is lighten by so much that it doesn't seems to hurt anymore. (:
'' Someone once asked me why I choose to confide in some friends over others. I don’t think I chose them. They were the ones who bothered to ask instead of speculating, who stuck around and stood up for me. It’s not that I chose them. It’s that they saw me, when I was invisible. '' so true it seems to be.
Anyway, Jiayou for your competition tmr baby! :D
if you dont care anymore, why should i be?
Thursday, October 28, 2010
Sometimes i feel that i care too much about how you feel so i try to make things between us less awkward. But apparently it doesn't help. You have chosen, why should i stay? yes of course i know, probably since the day I haven't given you as much attention as you want. Sometimes i neglected you. But i did try. I rush to you the moment i see you feeling upset, i did show you i care whenever i know you didn't feel good. I try to bridge the widening gap between us every now and then but it doesn't seem to get any better. Many times, i feel so much to just let go of everything and ignore what appears so clearly right in front of me and be comfortable with myself around the people im comfortable with. Yet the reality is, the moment you show signs of unhappiness, i worry for you and i thought to myself im hurting you and i shouldn't be so selfish to enjoy the fun and laughter with the others while you are feeling neglected on the other side. But you ask yourself, when you're behaving like she's your closest friend, have you spared a thought for me? I mentioned before, i dont mind you having friends that makes you happier and more comfortable, i dont mind you spending more times with them than with me. I really mean it. Im just so disappointed and hurt each time you treat me as invisible and makes me feel so awful. It just feels that you don't care as a friend anymore. I know im not a good friend to you but you aren't to me either. Sometimes, i really regret for being your friend. To me, you're just another stranger. Since today, i promise myself im just going to keep one eye close and my feeling shut.
To those who doesn't know anything, i appreciate if you keep the comment to yourself.
roller coaster
Checking of promo scipts yesterday. Did pretty well, kinda surprise. Haha. Sadly, the atmosphere at that time weren't that joyful. Quite sad that there were only quite a few people to share the join with. To those who hasn't done very well, its not the end of everything. You still have a chance, make sure you work harder nxt time. (: cheer up people, love you guys!(:
on a lighter note, OP exam is coming which means its going to be the end of school terms soon. Im officially broke now, have to find a job real soon. :/ and chalet date is to be comfirmed on a ltr date due to some changes. Yeah,but it will be settled soon. sorry guys.
I think alot for the past few days and i wonder if its me or it just happens. last time we used to be so close but now it feels awkward to be with you. Im sorry and terribly guilty to them for losing or at least on the verge of losing the people we used to share a special bond. But i know, very well, i should let you go if it makes you happier. I shouldn't be so selfish.
Last thing, I cant seem to control my appetite again. like seriously got huge craving every now and then. Im currently craving for stingray which i just had with baby 4 days ago? awesome, this huge appetite is stuffing me fat everyday.:O haha.
Many things have happened recently. its kinda an emotional roller coaster. Yet this week seems great, though. :D
cool about it
Saturday, October 23, 2010
Have been wondering if i should really consider joining NY guzheng. Its worth considering cos it makes my sgc nicer. Afterall I only have slc which haven't done anything pretty much. Its kinda screwed. On the other hand, since I know I cant find the same feeling as I have being part of xms guzheng, I dont see the motivation to join back gz. I miss guzheng alot, but its not just about being part of the team but also having to play and suffer scoldings and endure the monsterous practices together with those girls.
I shiver each time i thought of how im going to make it to university with this kinda screwed sgc and apparently not any better kind of result. This is awesome.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY UMME KULSUM! :D
It has been quite long since we last catch up. Nevertheless, I miss you loads. Esp the ways you managed to keep everyone laugh with your funny yet not so funny stunts and your noobness. Hehe. For my 17 years, I have met great friends who lend their shoulder and ears to me whenever I need them but you're kinda different. You will cry with me. Im surprise that you actually did that years back but i have to admit its amazing to meet a friend like you. <3
Stay happy and awesome girl! :D
stay strong
Monday, October 18, 2010
Everyone of us is working hard for project work. WR, OP slides, GPP and even I&R. Sometimes, its really draining us out. But we will perservere right? let's try our best.
Jiayou NY045! and other groups! <3
Feeling fat is a girl's habit, unfortunately
Sunday, October 17, 2010
I just finished i&r. God, freaking drain my energy. Furthermore, tonight's weather is like madly hot. I think one day, Im not gona survive without Aircons. k watched Childseye with favourite girls and baby. Shiok. since long i watched horror show. but sadly not 3D. haha but still great. :D then went back xms to take testimonial. Amazing how the school has changed.
Anw dearest! Cheer up! Learn from meeeeeee! ;D haha. Just keep yourself happy everyday by keeping an open heart. Dont compare and i bet, you will definitely be much happier. Im sure he loves you for who you are. you have got every reasons to be a happy girl so be one. Dont fret, smile! (; love you and catch up soon!
Im gona start shedding weight alr, for my own sake. Feeling fat is a girl's habit, unfortunately. I still wanna wear my pretty clothes and Im trying to kick my addiction to KOI.
Oh one horrible thing coming up. OP is a deadly weapon. I cant imagine im actually going through that. Dont worry, Im also worrying about how my voice gona reach the examiner clear and audible enough. yesssss, enough! Im going to brave it! Most likely I will tremble like mad. ><
Seriously, I cant wait for everything to be over.
Secret
Thursday, October 14, 2010
well, i remember on a particular day this month. I had a fairytale like story came true. (:
haha. watched buried with baby. Bad show, at least I think so. haha. totally almost broke my neck. had a once in a lifetime embarrassing moment in the cinema! after which had a sweet and memorable time at the beach. Im definitely touched by what you did. thanks baby. <3
met oscar too, both same species. hahaha.
surprise? :D
PILLOW FIGHT
HELLO PEOPLE,LONG AWAITED POST IS BACK. :D
Hehe, finally after promo! The feeling is shiok after 100+ days of crazy torturous mugging!! Anyway, right after the last paper. 1010 has a mini bbq session at ard su's house. Super awesome because it was mega fun. Hehe. Before that had pillow fight against zhenyi at su's house. Great job to us! we shall try out again during chalet. :P Sometimes I think I very idiotic but I really had fun playing such tricks on you guys. So memorable isnt it! :D haha. The bbq session started ard 6. Eat play laugh and crap all the way. 1010 is awesome. :D
After clearing up, went waterfront. It was really enjoyable and tiring. haha. We climbed and played merry go round and swing. TOTALLY KIDS. haha. It was a good way to vent everything out after so long though. And me and baby had a good time enjoying our shaking butt shadow. hahaha.
Looking forward to the chalet! Oh btw, im alr halfway done with the chalet thingy. sorry guys for being so slow. :P
&here's the pics! (all jumble up :x)
i wanted to put into video but very lazy. so....
thanks baby! :D
and universal studio trip!
Woo, that day at universal studio was damn damn damn awesome. Had great fun with zy mel kid sandy! :D I wanna go there again!
Okay i swear im gona collapse after this post. Goodbye! :D