bits by bits
Hi. I'm Angelina.
I can't explain the weirdness in me at times.
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It comes and goes
Tuesday, January 15, 2013
School has resumed and everyday's a routine once again. Back to kent ridge really feels like a cage though there are always friends making the day much easier to survive. Tentaively, my study days are on 1,2,5 of the week which is honestly, pretty much relaxing than most other people. Hopefully i get to execute my plans this year actively and smoothly.
Well, on a side note, somethings are pretty burdening at the back of my mind. Not sure if its premenstration thoughts when i will most often overthink or get rather sensitive.
Friends come and go, we all know that. Recently, i really felt like i have so many to hold on such that its taking my breath away, and worst of all, things are not looking any good. Its good to have a few close friends, but there are just too many that i really want to keep close to heart. But there is only one me, and sometimes i get so tired that i stop moving. I let them come to me, and if you don't, maybe, perhap you don't worth me either.
It breaks my heart that close friend no longer confide in you. Honestly, sometimes, i do hate you. I hate you for being so insensitive, immature and selfish. I wonder when will you learn your way and just stop telling others you know you are bla bla. Change. Dont just talk about it. I hate you to the point that i feel like i didnt want to care anymore. I want to pull out of this game, its not gona work no matter how hard i try. You have so many others showering you the love you don't deserve, at all. You thank them, you appreciate them but you don't return it. You are selfish, as always.
It also terrors me with your existence. I really don't like to pretend to be close with you. I know you too well and i feel very disgusted. I have long forgotten how close we were when we are young because you had gradually erased those memories of you in me. But, i will continue to treat you well. Just because you treat me well. But you know how things really are between us, dont make things awkward anymore. Nevertheless, i know you are trying hard. But i guess its true, once gone, its never the same.
Also, to all my friends, sorry if i had not been giving you my attention and all. Just like how i came to know about something this evening. I'm really having a hectic schedule now. Despite being so free, having 3-sch days only, i really have alot of things running at the back of my mind. I may have overlook your feeling or anything, there are only two reasons. It was either unintended or for that few, I really want to know if i ever matter too.
I think i have a very fierce attitude even though i was well known for being a gentle lady. I don't like to entertain people i dislike and i reject them with hostility. I have a bitchy attitude in me, you don't know how bitchy my inner thoughts really are. Its true, there are many people i judged and dislike. But i always try to be nice and accepting because i have always been so. Im a girl with very bad temper. No one has seen me really flare up other than my family. Im a girl with very bad temper. I think the boy has also seen the change in me. I dont know why either, i dont know whats wrong either. So please, stop asking me what's wrong.
Me, myself, I
I'm Angelina
Birthday 13 March
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All I ever wanted for in return was simply our friendship to stay genuine
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It comes and goes
Tuesday, January 15, 2013
School has resumed and everyday's a routine once again. Back to kent ridge really feels like a cage though there are always friends making the day much easier to survive. Tentaively, my study days are on 1,2,5 of the week which is honestly, pretty much relaxing than most other people. Hopefully i get to execute my plans this year actively and smoothly.
Well, on a side note, somethings are pretty burdening at the back of my mind. Not sure if its premenstration thoughts when i will most often overthink or get rather sensitive.
Friends come and go, we all know that. Recently, i really felt like i have so many to hold on such that its taking my breath away, and worst of all, things are not looking any good. Its good to have a few close friends, but there are just too many that i really want to keep close to heart. But there is only one me, and sometimes i get so tired that i stop moving. I let them come to me, and if you don't, maybe, perhap you don't worth me either.
It breaks my heart that close friend no longer confide in you. Honestly, sometimes, i do hate you. I hate you for being so insensitive, immature and selfish. I wonder when will you learn your way and just stop telling others you know you are bla bla. Change. Dont just talk about it. I hate you to the point that i feel like i didnt want to care anymore. I want to pull out of this game, its not gona work no matter how hard i try. You have so many others showering you the love you don't deserve, at all. You thank them, you appreciate them but you don't return it. You are selfish, as always.
It also terrors me with your existence. I really don't like to pretend to be close with you. I know you too well and i feel very disgusted. I have long forgotten how close we were when we are young because you had gradually erased those memories of you in me. But, i will continue to treat you well. Just because you treat me well. But you know how things really are between us, dont make things awkward anymore. Nevertheless, i know you are trying hard. But i guess its true, once gone, its never the same.
Also, to all my friends, sorry if i had not been giving you my attention and all. Just like how i came to know about something this evening. I'm really having a hectic schedule now. Despite being so free, having 3-sch days only, i really have alot of things running at the back of my mind. I may have overlook your feeling or anything, there are only two reasons. It was either unintended or for that few, I really want to know if i ever matter too.
I think i have a very fierce attitude even though i was well known for being a gentle lady. I don't like to entertain people i dislike and i reject them with hostility. I have a bitchy attitude in me, you don't know how bitchy my inner thoughts really are. Its true, there are many people i judged and dislike. But i always try to be nice and accepting because i have always been so. Im a girl with very bad temper. No one has seen me really flare up other than my family. Im a girl with very bad temper. I think the boy has also seen the change in me. I dont know why either, i dont know whats wrong either. So please, stop asking me what's wrong.
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