New Year
Sunday, January 22, 2012
Lately being procrastinating sociallising with people and also having a rough time with the boy. :( Guess work has drained alot of my energy. Its not really that taxing but every part of it seems to suck my energy. But ironically i like being busy, at least its better than idling around. I dont wanna feel like im wasting my holiday away. Then, i feel empty inside on this festive season. I want to spend more time with my family and friends, and the boy and i mean i want to spend everyday with them..but i cant. I feel im not a good friend, not a good daughter, not a good sister neither am i a good girlfriend. Even today, boyfriend invite me over for reunion lunch but i couldn't make it as i have promised to work half day. sigh. pulau ubin trip with my favourite girls are also delaying for days. I do not even know if i can make it to the BBQ trip to meet my long time no see friends. sigh just rambling....
Anyway, the boy is going to army very very soon :( perhaps that is what really makes me feel like a unhappy girl for so many days recently. We have moodswings (not only me) almost everyday. I mean...he's not just my boyfriend. He's also my closest friend who has been with me the longest for the past two years. I'll miss him and certainly..i will feel weird and empty without his presence..Deep inside, i guess i really know how people look upon me.. maybe i am really spending too much time with the boy but honestly, other than my two dears, i have never felt any closer with anyone in my whole life(other than my family). Speaking of that, i really miss my kid and kee siao these days. Had the impulsiveness to head back ny to see them badly. :(
Also, ever since i created fb, i practically left it to rot LOL.I am really not the web person. Dont really like spending my time on the net or watching videos online. I would prefer going shopping with people i am 100% comfortable with or watching tv at home even though the shows are on repeat for years ( i even watch indian movie with my dad if there are no better alternatives haha) or simply lie on my bed and sleep. So yeap thats just me, so despite having the fb, twitter and this blog, i guess i dont really come here that often.
Ok this post is just relavant to no one but myself. I have a list of task that friends entrusted me to do but havent got the time to do. so let me think...
1) celebrate disgusting belated's bdae
2) class bbq which seems pathetically organised (speaking of this, i feel so angst. If people got work i understand not because i am in the same plight but rather i feel there ought to be some sense of responsibility at work as well so i think its ok. Other than that, i guess this may probably be the last meetup for all of us to gather together before the results are released and in the next subsequent months. Aiya forget it, its not as if i havent saw this coming. Honestly, i do dislike people who are these self centered. I dont bear grudges but at some point of time, they just turned me off totally.)
3) pulau ubin trip
4) manicure with the girls. (I make for them ok!! *proud face)
ok thats all for today. Happy new year everyone! Everybody HUAT AHHHHHHHHHH :D