Slience wave
Thursday, July 07, 2011
What had gone wrong between us? I wonder if I still had a place in your heart all along this time cause a part of me am clueless to where I stand to you. It bothers me a great deal when I received your texts like they are so cold and...distant. Is this friendship gradually becoming meaningless? Friends like you always mean alot to me yet I really don't know who am I to you. The way we communicate is simply like a stranger or worse still enemy. Why? Did I make you upset again? You never tell me things that you ought to tell me and seem less to confide in me. I can't get into your world like I used to anymore. But you never understand. There's already a hole in here and it's getting bigger and bigger. You just never see... :( i don't know what I should do to save this cause it just seems that the more I do the more it got worse. Can I just let it be? Perhaps this hole will not hurt as much as I thought..
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today was the last paper for mid year. One whole freaking month of revising was totally screwed. I'm so gona work hard for prelim and score better this time round. These few days I shall consider taking a break but honestly I don't deserve this break. :{ afterwhich had a funny and retarded session with shum and ridz at tampines exploring the kiddies stuff and all. Then dinner with ny045 at sakae sushi at parkmall. Had buffet again and I was near bloated. And then those greedy pigs wanted frolick so I'm forced to had that too haha but frolick was nice. I like it topless haha. Home with keeee. Hope both of them like the cards me and kee made for them long long long time ago :)))
this year is passing way too fast. I need to speed up and stop living in my own world. Save myself before the world crash on me as expected if I keep sticking onto the same ground. Living this way is going to be history soon!