The scream goes unheard
Wednesday, April 06, 2011
Hi life's a bore and it's always the usual routine. I wanna grow out of this study life and feel really like a free bird but fat hope, yeah I know. I remember when I was p2 I think, I stayed at my aunt house temporarily. Every midnight around 2 plus I will have the habit to go toilet. And whenever I opened the door trying to make my way to the toilet I never failed to get taken aback by my poor cousin who was mugging for her A's at that time. She literally look like a mad woman. Her hardwork did paid off as she's now already acquire a kinda high post in her company and earn nearly 5000 monthly excluding all the bonus she has gotten from time to time. Envy much but I'm not sure if I'm ready to pay the price. Nontheless, she's someone I look upon to and I hope someday when I break away from all those lectures tutorials and exams that are drowning me, I'm going to explore the world happily and fufillingly.
Anyway I have written a long post about how I felt about nyjc service learning closing down and it was in a really mad and terrible tone that I decided perhaps it would be better to keep within. Afterall it couldn't change anything there's no need to offend anyone. Yet I wanted to say, it was unfair to the members esp the juniors and I feel both parties are plainly ridiculous. Period. Anyway, today was our last session. To a certain extent I wouldn't say I regretted being part of them because I really did gain quite alot from all I have learnt. But then it's kind of disappointing too. Well, it's all over.
Then I wanna share some of my childhood experiences. I sort of remember how much retarded stuffs I used to do in the past. I remember i still suck the nipple when I went to kindergarden2 and it was embarassing much because apparently I couldn't live without it. I used to often wet my bed and got scolded badly by my aunt. I was being punished to dry my own bed and stood outside of the house haha. I used to be very boyish as I often play with the boys even though I was in Chinese dance. I played pokemon, the eraser thingy,wrestling and oh ya I even outrun many of the guys in catching. Haha I joined the atheletic in p4 I think but couldn't hold on by p5 cos I don't wanna get tanned. Oh I used to have super curly hair too that I couldn't stand it and went for rebornding. And I started cheating in k2, haha. It was a spelling test and I couldn't differentiate was were and are. Ridiculous manxzz thinking of it. And so I stick the paper with the words on my pencil case which is those kind of metallic one. So during the test I could open and see smart kid I thought I was. Who knows all the three words was called consecutively and so I have to open and close my pencil case like 6 times and worse thing the metal sound was so loud that inevitably got caught. Zzz. But I stopped cheating since p2 cos I wanna be a good girl haha.
K you just wasted 5 min of your life reading my childhood which I write out of boredom hehe love you readers :)