Happy ending(:
Thursday, December 30, 2010
( ps: it's gona be a long wordy post, do bear with it!)
Its already the last day of this awesome year! woohoo, time pass really really fast. i still vividly remember how i went through orientation and still basking in that joy and high moment to my first class test, the memorable sailing experience, viva la music, and how i managed to survive the huge crisis-promo. i met alot of friends along the way and im really glad i met them cos till date, i realise they were always there to give me a hand whenever i need. some of them came in the early part of the yr but for some reasons, they left while some came in the later part of the year and i hope they will never leave(: though they were really bitchy and super sickening but with them around, there's always laughter. and i must admit im kinda whiny at times and sometimes im so scared that i will irritate others unknowingly esp suhui! hahaha. so im gona learn to be stronger and stop being so whiny anymore. (:
this year is really awesome, not only cos i met alot of people i treasured very much, i alot met darren that sickening boy. hmm i must say i really didn't have a good impression of him initially but things change and i just unknowingly realised that hey afterall he's not that bad. and of course it's all thanks to diondra for bridging this misunderstanding between us and brought me and him closer together, and eventually we got together. throughout the period of time we are a couple, i get to know him better and i can't deny he really makes a good boyfriend, tolerating my nonsense and pms and whatsoever. thanks to the girls and baby, my jc life is really wonderful. (:
then, i want to say although this year was awesome max but there's still quite a number of regrets that perhaps makes me even treasure those i had around me now. although i'm still considered close to dearest, hsiaoching and umme but somehow i feel that i lost something which once held us even closer. i met and caught up with dearest more than the other two but still,i feel something is missing. maybe I haven't been spending as much time with them as i am with others. i really miss them, and i hope the four of us will spend more time together in the coming year. (:
& here's some dedication to some people whom have made an impact in my life in 2010,
(randomly)
tay xinan:
hey you have been my closest friend, my confidant for 5 years! and im glad you still stay in my life. and for the longest, you tolerated my nonsense most and each time i feel like breaking down, you will always send me those short but cute text to cheer me up. im kinda serious when i said if i hadn't met darren, i think i will like you instead! hahaha. but im straight, yeah no worries even if one day im back to single and though this year the times we spend with each other is even less than those we spend going to the toilet everytime during sec4, im glad we still make the effort to catch up with each other. and thats the reason why i treasured you so much. but perhap you were really busy with your new found school mates like i do that you seem to have drifted alittle away from me. i understand but i hope it wont be to the extent that close friends become your back up plans you know what i mean. and you know i have always being very truthful about what i say to you and i hope you understand me. as i said this year without you revolving as much around my life, it feels kinda different but im sure we will meet again in uni? :D and thanks to you i met diondra, though it was kinda a short period stay and things between us may get you in a difficult position but yeah, im still glad to know her through you. <3
toh hsiaoching:
woo, you this horrible girl really get me hopping mad at times mannnnnn. you went europe without telling me and now you have been mia for so long! the last time i met you was around end of november y'know. but k la, you are another one whom i really treasure alot. i only get to know you in sec3 and i remember that time i keep procastinating you cos i thought you were some snobbish girl. hehe but turn out you were so easy to bully. hehehe. you really got me smiling when im thinking what to say about you. i dont know why either, but to me, you are like a small kid but your actions and words are really funny and sometimes i nearly vomit blood talking to you cos you always slower by three pace. haha but i really like spending time with you. its comfortable and i just naturally tell you whats bothering me and you just listen and give me advice. really good ones and funny. haha. i like to laugh at the way you eat and the way you walk. there's really only one word to describe-funny. :D can we meet up soon as soon as you come back from europe? oh, i still remember the starting of the year you told me you really miss me and now the person sitting next to you during lectures are no longer me and you feels weird. although i had really short term memory, but i remember i was really happy and touched to hear that.i just wanna thanks you for always being there for me and you know i will always be there too if you need me be. (:
umme kulsum:
youuuuuuuu! another wanna vomit blood one. back to india without informing me. :( but anyway, i admit that i weren't as close to you as i am to xinan and hsiaoching prolly cos i know them longer and i spend more time with them. but nevertheless, i am still glad to have known you and hear about all your funny stories. i remember those days we mug together for o but nowadays we really rarely meet up isn't it? :O I hope i will still remain as someone important to you and someone you can turn to yeah?
ng suhui:
this vulgur girl! haha. i think she's really cute although she scold vulgurs like no big deal. hehe. i still remember the time when i first saw her coming into the class. i weren't really scared of her like the others but she go and bang the table with her bag or something and i was like wow kinda fierce huh? :O HAHA. and then the rest of us saw her sitting at the study area talking on the phone alone so we ask her to join us. and soon she became part of us, another who's as important to me. although she's kinda short, but really dont bully her often when you are just standing beside her. i only get to won her when i text bully her. haha. but anyway, im kinda surprise that you're those kind of girls that really hate whiny girls and sometimes i do get on your nerve but so far you hadn't use any vulgarity on meeeeee. :D thats one thing to be joyful about. hehe. i must admit though, i really like your character. the kind who dare to say whatever's on your mind. and though you really like to act cute with that pig face, im thankful to have known such a cute girl with such an awesome personality! (;
darren tan:
you sickening boy. tsk! i have quite alot to say about you. :O HAHA. hmm, this year has been really great with your presence. its amazing
how we got together from stranger to you being my boy now. and cos you're considered my first, this year 2010 is kinda special to me. thanks to you, i have also gotten the knot in my heart untangled. i still remember our first conversation like how i used to tell you. and this year, you revolve around my life more than anyone else. and you will always be there to shoulder all my unhappiness and tolerate all my nonsense. and i hate to mention this, but sorry to get you tear over me. awwwww, HAHA. i know my temper isn't that good either despite
how much i try to take it easy even if im already hopping mad. and my moodswing is really horrible but then you told me you wouldn't mind and you stood by me and try your best to cheer me up everytime. and of course, you never fail to make me happy with all those surprises you gave me every now and then. you are not just an awesome boyfriend but also a really awesome close friend to me too. things between us can be rough at times but we know we can work it out. im really glad to have known you this year. :)
wanling:
till date, i still don't really know how to spell your initial. :x sorry girl! hehe. but you're also another girl who means alot to me! and i think
thanks to you i really set my heart to chiong for my studies. you motivate me alot if you didnt know. (: i really admire you also, the kind who manage work and play well. and you really talk sense into me and sometimes, teaches me along the way. but i keep telling darren i think suhui is a tigress and you are like a sheep. hahaha. but i dont mean anything okay, i just mean that its good to talk to you cos you will never get angry with me even if i say something wrong. hehehe. this year was like a tornado year for me, after so much happenings you and her were always there for me, or rather we were always there for one another. i like this kind of friendships cos it makes me feel at least im not alone. (: and i super like it when i got bullied by the two sharp tongues and you got into the shit with me. hehehe. :P Anyway, you have been a really great friend and i know i can always count on you. (: you can too! :D
melissa foo:
this girl is super bitchhhhhy. :D okay la, you're not that bad afterall. hehehe. although you are younger than me but i always have the feeling that you're that big sister always taking care of me. (: though i only get to really know you in the later year, but to me you are adventurous
and someone who likes to have fun. and also, you are another one who really dare to speak whats on your mind. (: but you really have a sharp tongue and like to shoot people huh! hehe. but times spend with you and the rest was really fun and funny and i enjoyed the way you
shoot them, HAHA but not meeeee! and the wu nai face when you got shoot. hehe, but you are one pretty girl who has amazing personality. like a big sister, you are always there to cheer me up and show that you care as friend. i enjoy those time we spend together when we were having fun. :D And if you need me be there, i will always be. (:
shum zhenyi:
another sharp tongue. Hehe. but i like her character also. k all my friends have personalities that i really admire. but anyway i like you always standing for what you believe is right and not siding anyone. hehe. yup i also only get to really know you in the later year but i have enjoyed
your presence as you always bring laughter to us. the way you bitch is unique man, i really got alot to learn from you. :O Haha. but anyway, thanks for being another such an awesome friend. im sure you will be there to offer good and useful advices just like a mother. :D haha. and you can count on me too, although i may not be as good! :)
and i have to mention ong likeng, diondra tan and ginette kee. i really had a lot to say to each of them but i really don't know how to start writing. these 3 are also the ones i treasure close to heart. because of certain things, we weren't able to carry on but really, im still glad that you 3 appear in my life in 2010. and although we are not in the same class anymore next year, i believe we can still be close friends right? ginette keeeee! next time when you wanna swim or study, remember to call me along k? things change but friendship remains. i guess thats what it means. (:
i have live past 2010 fully and happily. i met great friends and pick up valuable lessons along the way. there's no denial that regrets exist though. i hope 2011 will be a more amazing year for me although most prolly its a mugging year cos of A. but anyway, with great people around, im sure i can live through it to the fullest!
new year resolution:
-takecare of my health and dont fall sick so easily
-slim down slim down omgggg, cut down on junk food!
-sleep more and drink more water
-decent results that can make it to university
-stay even closer to my family
-keep in touch with old friends and stay in touch with all close friends
-treat baby nicerrrrr, cut down on pms, be a better girlfriend
-learn to be a better person, dont bear grudges, dont be so whiny and stay stronger
okay, goodbye 2010! <3