Self-deceiving
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
It doesn't feel the same anymore despite how much I try to pretend it is, or when I really wish one day, magically, we have that same old warm and close feeling back. When I know, I don't have to pretend that I'm okay when inside me, it's all in a mess. Not that I am unwilling to confide with anyone, but honestly I'm always around people that cheer me up and lighten my mood. With them around, I don't feel that heavy thing pulling me down. I forget my aches and Im just happy with no worries. But when I'm alone, I just think uncontrollably and that's when all the shit mood hit me and bring me down.
But now, I don't even know if I'm pretending anymore.
Anyway, class chalet on 8-10 dec. Hopefully it will be fun and no more displeasure! And me and baby heading to uss on 22. Thanks zhenyi for helping us book the tickets! And yup, it will be another fun day. Hehe can't wait! Alright, goodnight readers! :D