changing to be better
Saturday, November 20, 2010
I was suppose to be sleeping at this time but just can't sleep. I know very well what has happen but I just don't know how to put in words that best describe how I really felt inside. Pathetic and shitty. But I decided I shouldn't complain anymore and instead of sitting there and leave the shit alone and wait it to slowly fade away, I wanna change myself. I wanna be a better person and face all of them bravely. I really wanna break free from all these and really be a happy girl. Everynight I ponder why my life are so messy and I can't sleep. There are freaking lots of things weighing me down. Don't ask me if I'm fine cos I don't even know it myself. Tonight I have set my heart. I wanna do things right. I wanna badly sleep soundly at night, for once.
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so I have decided I will try out for the ogl. Heard that the SC are rather mean. Well, shall face them bravely. Haha. And hopefully I make full use of my jc life then. Thinking back, I seem to have wasted my j1 year without much accomplishment. So the tryout for ogl hope it changes everything and cheer me up a little.
Anyway, last fri caught HP 7 with the bunch of funny ppl. The show was awesome, really great with the sound and visual effect. Though I got really scare out at some parts. And I don't mean to scream at that time, don't laugh at me. All sickening ppl, tsk. :P
and for now, I'm gona sleep already. Goodnight. (: