if you dont care anymore, why should i be?
Thursday, October 28, 2010
Sometimes i feel that i care too much about how you feel so i try to make things between us less awkward. But apparently it doesn't help. You have chosen, why should i stay? yes of course i know, probably since the day I haven't given you as much attention as you want. Sometimes i neglected you. But i did try. I rush to you the moment i see you feeling upset, i did show you i care whenever i know you didn't feel good. I try to bridge the widening gap between us every now and then but it doesn't seem to get any better. Many times, i feel so much to just let go of everything and ignore what appears so clearly right in front of me and be comfortable with myself around the people im comfortable with. Yet the reality is, the moment you show signs of unhappiness, i worry for you and i thought to myself im hurting you and i shouldn't be so selfish to enjoy the fun and laughter with the others while you are feeling neglected on the other side. But you ask yourself, when you're behaving like she's your closest friend, have you spared a thought for me? I mentioned before, i dont mind you having friends that makes you happier and more comfortable, i dont mind you spending more times with them than with me. I really mean it. Im just so disappointed and hurt each time you treat me as invisible and makes me feel so awful. It just feels that you don't care as a friend anymore. I know im not a good friend to you but you aren't to me either. Sometimes, i really regret for being your friend. To me, you're just another stranger. Since today, i promise myself im just going to keep one eye close and my feeling shut.
To those who doesn't know anything, i appreciate if you keep the comment to yourself.